ভালবাসি

আধো ঘুম, আধো জাগা,

এরই মাঝে স্বপ্ন বাঁধা,

ভেসে যায় সামনে দিয়ে,

তবুও কেন সে অধরা ?

অধরাকে ধরতে গিয়ে ,

ফিরতে হলো সেই জগতে ,

দেখি সে যে  এখনো দাঁড়িয়ে 

পথের সেই বাঁকের ধারে ।

স্বপনে তারে পেয়েছি আমি ,

একদিন গভীর ঘুমের মাঝে,

জানি সে যাবে হারিয়ে আবার ,

প্রচন্ড সেই ঢেউ এর খাজে !

পাবার আশা নাই যে আমার ,

শুধু  জানি  ভীষণ  ভালবাসি,

আমার নয়, তবুও আমার ,

এই জানাতে আমি বাঁচি!

Back To Back !

One star studded night,

By the dreamy beach,

We sit, back to back,

You lean on me, I on you,

The waves are loud,

And the moon is new!

Time took a pause,

My eyes are filled,

So is yours, as we sit,

Back to back, on the beach!

Silence gets to say,

In its enchanting way,

Ripples generate,

In my blood, echoes in veins,

I fall back on you, again!

Sleep slips in my eyes,

Yet I am awake, for,

Thousand years now!

Tell me how, you sleep,

As I lay awake even in slumber!

That night on the beach,

As we sit, back to back,

With entangled breath,

In the cold sea breeze,

We sit, we wonder,

We dream, we say to each other,

I a wave, you a wave,

We mix, we are the sea,

You and me, that night,

Sit back to back, on the beach!

Not Yet Gone !

An emptiness embraces me,
Am void, hollow inside,
All feelings are frozen now,
My words have all died !


A walk within myself,
And am shock laden,
How can a heart survive,
Among all the barren ?


Too numb to feel the pain,
Too proof for happiness either,
A trance that grips my being,
Gives me all but a breather !


Each battle with my pain own,
Each day that I get up and fight,
Each struggle to segregate,
All the wrong's from the right !


Each moment of precious smile,
Each day a hug from my son,
Each day you saying 'Am there',
Assures am living and not yet gone!

Shikayat Zindegi Ki, Zindegi Se!

Apni jeevan to mein ji hi nahi...

Kabhie iski... kabhie uski...

Hamesha hi udhar ki...

Zindegi mein jeeti rahi...!

Tum se jo mili thi...

Kabhie ek boond zindegi ki...

Usse to mein sanjho nahi pai...

Bo nahi pai... meri viran...zindegi ki...

Ret main... !

Sabki batein mujh tak pohoch jati hain

Par meri khamoshi main lipti  awaaz...

Koi nahi sunta...yaha.. koi nahi sunta..

Zindegi mujhe tujhse badi shikayat hain..
Teri hi shikayat mein tujhse karu....
Jo hain so teri hi den hain...
Par jo nahi hain.. woh bhi to tune hi cheena hain!

World In Insomniac Eyes !

Last night it was well past four,
When all surrendered to sleep;
Wrapped themselves in peace,
Behind their four walls, shut doors.


I took a virtual flight, to see you,
Across the blue hills, azure sea;
I travelled, I carried myself, for me;
And did get a glimpse of divine you.


The stars were drunk and drowsy,
The moon wore cloud's warm blanket;
Sea slept wearing the wavy locket,
Roads were lonely, dark and grumpy.


I saw you in faded caliginous light,
Some shadow fell on your face;
Am hurrying, crossing a maze,
A madness at the dead end of night.


Beautiful night, rests in your slumber,
Innocent night, in my insomniac eyes;
Sees virtues all... denounces all vice,
Tried to pretend, to get lost in you forever.


Morning tiptoed in, treading upon my dreams,
Better senses dawned, with the rising sun;
I smiled on my folly own, now noon too is done,
In twelve hours, I passed a day it seems...!

Pain's Proposal !

Pain lingers, pain haunts, pain all over,
Heart aches, soul bleeds,
Pain today and forever !

Pain that you give me, pain that I adopt,
Clots in my bleeding veins,
Pain, this, gets me chopped !

Pain in crowded me, pain when am alone,
That which tells me am alive,
Pain which sealed all my cries and moan !

Pain in my dry eyes, pain within my being,
An everyday gift you adorn me with,
Pain that engulfs me, without you knowing !

Pain that begins with you, pain that ends in me,
Fills in the entire semblance,
Pain, my lover, proposes each day, bending on knee !

Beautiful Again !

Sky melts to float on earth,
Long wait of both ends...
I watch from my window...
How the horizon and sea blends !

Monsoon dances salsa
Wearing her trinklets new...
And the branches swing...
As if they enjoy the view !

Few parrots seek shelter,
Beneath my window pane...
Few divine empyrean drops...
And oh all is beautiful again !

Framed Presence !

One day, when you shall realize,
After seeing through my eyes,
The inherent beauty you have,
Which mirror fails to reflect...

One day, when I shall cease to be,
And then you try to grasp me,
By my not being, you get to know,
Here, you may find me though...

One day in monsoon morning,
Earth gets moist, in you its me raining,
Do not pull out that dusted parapluie ,
You kept in your car dickey..

One day, walk through the rain...
Let each drop write the pain,
Tell you before dipping down,
I had loved you, and to you unknown...

One day when my traces vanish,
In ether my untold story languish,
And you try and embrace my absence, 
That day,
May your solitude be graced by my framed presence..!

Nothing !

Nothing is all I have...

Nowhere to go ! 

No mind exists in me...

No form.... no existence,

Nothing I can relate to...

Nothing to show...!

No words I have...

Nothing to speak or tell..

No love, no joy.. suddenly...

Nothing becomes a 'me'...

Nothing places me right, but a,

Nothing from you...

Nothing.. absolutely...
Nothing from you !

Gift From Me !

You inflict intense pain on me,
Then the very next moment..
Wrap a present for all...
And say its a gift special ?

I gift you nothing today,
For I have nothing to give..
Nothing to show everybody,
My hidden treasure of love!

A year of 365 days,
Passed away in season four...
I gave nothing to celebrate..
But lit a lamp in my darkest core...

Am the poorest of all poor...
Possess no treasure or wealth...
Yet on his day special..
I wish you luck and health...

If someday you drop in...
In an ardent search of me...
Take this, simple weave..my gift...
For I have nothing else for thee !

(16th june 2012 )

Do you love me ?

Once I asked him, like everyday,
'Do you love me, as much as I do?'
He smiled, said, 'yes I do, yes I love,
Yes without knowing how much you love me...
I love you ' !!
I felt ashamed... I felt bad...
Sat for a while... feeling sad...
Suddenly rain poured in...
I could not rush in...
Rose up to run in..
Dashed against a pair of palm...
Sheltering me from the pour...
Smiled he caught my hands.. said...
'Can you find anyone who loves you more?'
Thank god my tears camouflaged in rain...
Pain cut across all the pain...
Caught him... I ran in...I lived...
Love cannot be extracted by questions...
I realized.... Love gives and lives in love alone !

Timer!

Time, a great player, 

It breaks my life,

Into puzzle pieces!

Then whispers,

Assort them now,

Keep them, well,

In their places!!

I, stand still,

Gazing at the horizon,

Believing, all that I want,

To see, is written there!

But, the sky a virgin paper,

Where I paste my pictures,

An imaginary collage,

A fake assortment,

Of living and giving!

Time, returns in a while,

Smiles, asks, 'solved'?

I say, no not yet, 

Am still repaying the,

Debts of life, with life,

Once am done, shall,

Pick up the pieces, 

And place them right!!

Time, smiles, says,

'I will wait till eternity,

But, the day, all shall,

Get solved and placed,

You shall be beyond,

All the realizations great!!'

Possibilities in the womb of impossibilities!

My sun has just peeped in, from the southern sky,
Come evening from north it shall whisper good bye,

Warmth of this sun shall pervade my heart and soul,
I am now galloping fast towards life's effulgent goal.

The rains have just dried me up, clouds giggle pass by,
Winds fail to move me an inch, nor are my breaths high!

Life's opium slowly fills up the delphic golden shiny goblet,
I, in complete delirium is all absorbing, all I truly accept!

Drowned in the sea of impossibilities perhaps now a million,
I have incarnated an atmosphere painted in colored helium!

Today it is, today it shall be, today its all a new and changed day,
Ripping the bossom of all possibilities, my impossibilities find way!

Love Story !

The moon slept, with the million stars,
Earth slept, so did venus and the mars,
All the planets took a slumber deep,
The clouds came in to sneak a peep,
Saw the sky was still awake, and told,
Sleep now dear sky, we shall unfold,
Spread like a warm quilt upon you all,
Relax, and slowly asleep, you got to fall!
Sky sighed, and smiled to tell the clouds,
How can I sleep you all got to tell me aloud,
My sun is awake in some corner of my heart,
I cannot close my eyes, sleep is well still far!
Clouds stood a witness to this story whole,
Today it told me, hence I retell it to you all!
Love lies is its power of thousand fold giving,
Ask the sky, and know, what it is to be loving!

 

Moments Of Solitude

In a moment of complete solitude,

When humble, without attitude,
When the heart is devoid of all ego,
It then lives in past, days long ago;
Tries to break all given rules of life,
Of all its haves, and all deprives,
Counting on its joyful blessings all,
Whispering, alluring, in my ears own,
Telling me slowly, that, life is beautiful!!
Trying to convince my inherent self,
Am better off, than, anyone else;
Many have less, than treasure mine,
Many have much more, but that's fine;
The stars, the moon and the sun one,
Are solely mine, I share with none;
The bird that sings, but only for me,
And what my eyes behold, are for me;
Rest, whatever exiguous do I possess,
In the crease of heart, when compress,
Of my God, of my divine, pure line soul,
That supreme being, now my only goal,
I give you all I have, you must accept,
My exit, lies in all your denial and reject!

Kobekaar shey kotha !

'পেয়েছি'... অমিত লাবন্যকে বললে...

সোনার ভাষায়ে মানিকের  ভাষায়ে ,

তার আঙ্গুলে বন্দী করতে চাইলে...

পারলে না... কোনো বন্ধনে  বাঁধা গেল না...

ছড়িয়ে পড়ল  চার পাশে... শেষের কবিতার ভগ্নাংশ ...!

কোনো এক মেঘলা বিকেলে জানালার বাইরে ...

আমি চোখ রাখলেম আকাশে... 

খন্ড খন্ড মেঘের মাঝে ফুটে উঠলে এক জলছবি ...

ভেসে উঠলে লাবন্যের করুন মূখানি...

ঝাপসা যেন দেখতে পেলুম... অমিত হাথ বাড়ালে...

লাবন্য হাথখানি তাঁর গুটিয়ে নিলে...

eucalyptus গাছের গা বেয়ে নাবলে প্রচন্ড বৃষ্টি....

আমি ঘরের বাইরে বেরিয়ে এলুম... 

দেখি মেঘ গলে গেছে... 

আর বৃষ্টির ধারায় অমিত লাবন্য ধরায়ে  নেমেছে...

লাল পেড়ে সাদা নকশা করা শাড়ী... বেশ দেখাচ্ছে লাবন্যকে...

অমিতের গায়ে সাদা পাঞ্জাবি... দুজনে কি যেন বলাবলি করছে...

আমি অনেক দূরে... ঠিক বুঝতে পারছি না...

পাইন গাছের সরু পাতা বেয়ে টপটপ জল পরছে...

পাহাড়ে বর্ষা নেমেছে... মেঘেরা বেড়াতে এসেছে...

আমি মনে মনে হাসলুম... ভাবলুম... থাক ওরা ওদের মতো...!

আমি  দোতলার  ঘর ছেড়ে গেলুম ছাতে...

ছাতের কোণে জল জমেছিল... 

আমি তাতে ভাসিয়ে দিলুম  আমারিই  বানানো  সোনার তরীখানি ...

তারপর উঁকি দিলেম... আবার সেই বাড়িটির দিকে...

ততক্ষণে বৃষ্টি ধরেছে... আকাশের গায়ে রঙিন আলো ...

আর সেই আলোতে যেন মিলিয়ে গেল... অমিত লাবন্য...

এরপর বহু বছর কেটে গেছে... আজ আমি বাড়ি গেলে এদের খুজি...

ভাবি যদি দেখতে পাই... যদি আমার কাছে এরা আবার ধরা দেয়...

কিন্তু... কই ? আরতো  পেলুম না... এদের দেখতে...

সেই বিস্তীর্ণ রশ্নিতে  মিলিয়ে যাওয়া অমিত লাবন্য কে ...

আমি উদ্ধার করতে পারলাম না ওদের .... ওরা হারিয়ে গেছে... ! 

Kobekaar shey kotha!

'peyechi '... Amit Labonyo ke Bolle...

shonar bhashaye, maniker bhashaye,

Taar angule bondi korte chaile...

paarle na... kono bondhone bandha gelo na...

choriye porlo chaarpashe... shesher kobitar bhognangsho!

kono ek meghla bikele janalar baire...

ami chokh rakhlem akashe ...

khondo khondo megher majhe fute uthlo ek jolchobi..

bheshe uthlo Labonyer korun mukhkhani...

jhapsha jeno dekhte pelum, Amit haath barale...

Labanyo haathkhani taar gutiye nile...

eucalyptus gaacher ga beye nablo prochondo brishti...

ami ghorer baire elum...

dekhi megh gole geche..

aar brishti.r dharaye Amit Labonyo dhoraye nemeche....

laal pere shada noksha kora sharee...  besh laagche labonyoke...

Amiter gaye shada panjabi...dujone ki jeno bolaboli korche...

ami onek dure....thik bujhte parchi na...

pine gaccher shoru pata beye toptop jol porche...

pahare borsha nemeche...meghera berate esheche...

ami mone mone hashlum... bhablum... thak ora oder moto...

ami dotolar ghor chere gelum chate...

chater kone jol jomeche chilo...

ami taate bhashiye dilum amari banano shonar torikhani...

taarpor unki dilem... abar shei baritir dike...

totokhone brishti dhoreche...

akasher gaye rongin aalo..

aar shei aalote jeno miliye gelo Amit Labanyo...

erpor bohu bochor  kete geche...aajo ami bari gele eder khuji...

bhabi jodi dekhte pai... jodi amar kaache era dhora deye..

kintu koi ? aarto pelum na .... eder dekhte...

shei bistirno roshnite miliye jaowa Amit Labonyo ke...

ami uddhar korte parlam na  oder... ora hariye geche... !

Love

Few glances, single touch,

Yet I love you so much,

Few photos and some mail,

Yet they reveal an untold tale...

Strange life stranger ways,

Yet in its pulse lays...

Some truth of my being own..

Love is there hidden in revelation..!