Own Light

Beneath the heap of unspoken words

My love flourishes, in silence ..

When did I ever say, I need you

When did I want to love you,

In your presence?

Thoughts piles on thoughts 

I get lost in my own stream

When at the dead of night

I hear my own solitude scream!

Touch that I once felt, Now,

Wrapped in fabric, with utmost care ..

I wear in all the dark nights ..

To get the desired glare!

I knew not I could smile in joy,

Nor cherish all the impudence of love ..

But once I loved apart from me

I loved all the unloved from my soul's trove!

I seek no more pleasure of love

Nor do I wish a glance of my beloved ..

I today, am an anorak lover ..

Loving, without person, purpose or longing!

I love, because I know not any other thing ..

I love because I got to live ..

I love thee .. not for thee's sake ..

I love because I got to be me!

Long walk along the desolate garden

Agony that begets delight ..

Moist eyes .. glitters in smile ..

I have grown up .. in love .. 

I have found my own light !

~ Manjuri ~