Note On Giving Up !

It is not that am in pain today,
Pain has just given away,
And now I am able to see,
All that lie within me !

As the earth appear ,
Fresh after a shower,
So is me and my soul,
Tear washed beautiful !

No more waits, no more sigh,
None for whom I can die !
An awakened me, after a dream,
My heart sees a tinge of gleam !

Life it is, and it shall go on,
Whether am there or gone !
Nothing stops nothing hide,
Neither the time, nor the tide !

Unaccepted !

Words dissolved in silence ultimate,

I rose above my love and my hate,

Drenched myself in solitude complete,

Then, I knew, I had nothing to take or give !

Heart hidden in heart's own core , 

Like sand hidden in sandy shore,

Like million stars that hide each day,

I too want to hide, in that seen way !

River that flows does it know,

To the water its flowing owe,

The snowy mountain that glitter bright,

Is unaware of its debt to the sunlight !

The Gist :

You had given all, I could not take,

Gift of love awaits acceptance,

Amidst million forsakes !

I too had given you, you could not take,

You trampled upon it, Now,

Love dies in love, only for love's sake !

Fragile Dream !

It was not so long ago,
That in you I felt myself echo,

Now what remains,

Are sounds, of an alien domain !

My pain, my joy, my me,

Never knew how and when they left me,

They all had built a nest,

In your soul, far away, from my own zest !

I owned nothing, all given,

Believed, trusted, you had all taken,

Faith of love kept me green,

But then, how much life has a dream ?

Your pain weighs more,

It slices you and your heart's core,

My pain is but gesture light,

Weightless, as the bird's wings on its flight !

Expired Note !

I lay still, 

Beneath the rubble of time,

My breath short, vision gone,

Pulse still, senses numb,

Does the rays shine,

On that early dawn ?

I lay still,

As you tread upon me,

My grave's grass still young,

You trample my heart,

Walk upon my soul,

Relieved am gone?

I lay still,

On my cemented gravestone,

As you sit, smoking,

Reading my epitaph,

Fresh flowers you place,

Are you remembering ?

I lay still,

Now that you forgot this path,

My requiem haunts, 

Creepers hug me,

Am truly asleep,

Bridging my own beyond's !

Stricken And Gone !!

I wanted to hold your hand,
And forwarded mine too,
But you shrunk yours away,
And I just got all my due !!

This is what I am used to,
This is what I expect each day,
With one strike you showed me,
My home, and where I truely lay !!

Love was intoxicating me fully
And I was losing myself in you
One hit, that has punched my soul,
And am in place so alien so new !!

Life took a circle complete,
And left me from where I began,
And Oh yes, Fear not dear one,
I shall not ever return again !!

In Cognizant !

A kind of feeling, deep within,

Longing it is not, I very well know,

As I sit alone, in the life's shore,

And witness them, come and go!

A silence blankets my entire self,

Nothing exists, for nothing I can see,

Paralyzed thoughts, numb desires,

Neither pain nor happiness grips me !

Your presence ablaze's my heart's core,

Your absence does not bring pain anymore,

For with better senses I did realize, that,

None gets more than, what is destined for !

Enlightenment that follows is :~

Sun rises, sets too, moon shines everyday but one,

Stars shines, clouds float, waves takes their turn,

My window wide open, both of room and heart,

Now in solitude, I am cognizant, we meet only to part !!

Only Question Remains !

The dried red rose, that,
Still serves as a bookmark,
Once you had bought for me,
Without any occasion special,
Only on a heart's call...
Was it love ?

That sketch you made for me,
On the reverse of an empty,
Cigarette packet, some motifs,
Of your puzzled mind, and said,
Keep it, for someday, I may not be,
Was it love ?

Those walk down the haphazard lanes,
On chilled winter evenings, foggy,
Misty, gloomy, yet, warm with feelings,
Reasons unknown, destination unreached,
Saw a brighter moon, stars had glitter more,
Was it love ?

Countless waits, numberless annoy,
Speechless days passed in agony,
Known facts, unbelievable truths,
Hidden, camouflaged from all eyes,
A fragile trust of belonging, till the end,
Was it love ?

Years passed by, time did not wait,
It was only me waiting relentlessly,
Still I wait... thousand years gone...
Answer duped me... like ever...
No answer, for, silence never speak,
Was it love ?

Only question remains !!!