Stricken And Gone !!

I wanted to hold your hand,
And forwarded mine too,
But you shrunk yours away,
And I just got all my due !!

This is what I am used to,
This is what I expect each day,
With one strike you showed me,
My home, and where I truely lay !!

Love was intoxicating me fully
And I was losing myself in you
One hit, that has punched my soul,
And am in place so alien so new !!

Life took a circle complete,
And left me from where I began,
And Oh yes, Fear not dear one,
I shall not ever return again !!

In Cognizant !

A kind of feeling, deep within,

Longing it is not, I very well know,

As I sit alone, in the life's shore,

And witness them, come and go!

A silence blankets my entire self,

Nothing exists, for nothing I can see,

Paralyzed thoughts, numb desires,

Neither pain nor happiness grips me !

Your presence ablaze's my heart's core,

Your absence does not bring pain anymore,

For with better senses I did realize, that,

None gets more than, what is destined for !

Enlightenment that follows is :~

Sun rises, sets too, moon shines everyday but one,

Stars shines, clouds float, waves takes their turn,

My window wide open, both of room and heart,

Now in solitude, I am cognizant, we meet only to part !!

Only Question Remains !

The dried red rose, that,
Still serves as a bookmark,
Once you had bought for me,
Without any occasion special,
Only on a heart's call...
Was it love ?

That sketch you made for me,
On the reverse of an empty,
Cigarette packet, some motifs,
Of your puzzled mind, and said,
Keep it, for someday, I may not be,
Was it love ?

Those walk down the haphazard lanes,
On chilled winter evenings, foggy,
Misty, gloomy, yet, warm with feelings,
Reasons unknown, destination unreached,
Saw a brighter moon, stars had glitter more,
Was it love ?

Countless waits, numberless annoy,
Speechless days passed in agony,
Known facts, unbelievable truths,
Hidden, camouflaged from all eyes,
A fragile trust of belonging, till the end,
Was it love ?

Years passed by, time did not wait,
It was only me waiting relentlessly,
Still I wait... thousand years gone...
Answer duped me... like ever...
No answer, for, silence never speak,
Was it love ?

Only question remains !!!

On An Autumn Rendezvous !

The sky has washed its gown,
Its blue has been bleached,
Clouds have gone vagabond,
Announcing, autumn has reached !

My heart dances in delight alien,
My senses have stepped out of me,
A kind of bewilderment haunts,
And, the 'I' just got to run and flee !

Festive mood flows in the air,
A call from bosom deep beckon,
Am off on a rendezvous folks,
Am off as I hear some song forlorn !

My backpack carries nothing at all,
My soul bereft of all that once burdened,
Yes, this journey I shall make for myself,
Solely with myself, and some memoirs hardened !

An Ode To A Fallacy Called Love !

Ode to a fallacy called love !

A rusted lamp, half lit, bears some flame of my heart,
Yet with each blow of ruthless wind, it goes off,
Tears me apart !

Some half hearted wishes, some half truths, half trust,
Packed and wrapped in some faint smile, lifeless,
You upon me thrust !

Morning comes in with hope and joy, noon is dull and cold,
Evening is walking in with dead light, night a cheater bold,
As I got nothing to hold!

If this is love, this is the gift of longing, waiting and wanting,
This is what I get, for baring my heart and soul umpteenth,
Am better dead than living !